Never enough

hey… just needed to let this out.

i was unemployed for almost a year and finally got a job recently, which i am grateful for but the hours are long, the commute’s brutal and by the time i get home, i feel like a zombie. no energy, no space to breathe…

my wife’s been amazing but she’s tired too. we’ve got a little one and there’s always something to do when i get home, helping with chores la, dinner, bedtime. a whole cycle and i just… i feel like i’m failing both of them. like i’m physically there but not really there.

i thought having a job again would help me feel more like myself but honestly, i don’t even know who that is anymore. i’m tired of feeling like i’m not enough. not a good enough dad. not a good enough husband. just not…good enough.

anyone else ever feel like you’re just surviving, not living?

bro i feel this. i havent got kids but it’s like you’re hoping things would get better once you reach a point (like finally getting a job) but still feel empty af, trying to hold it all together. gotta give yourself credit tho - showing up to work, showing up for your family but maybe you’re not showing up for yourself? go play some football or hang out with your mates?